Wednesday, August 1, 2007 @ 8:58 AM
BAD AUGUST.
good morning.i 've failed to live up to my belief of starting a day brightly, for the past few days.crisis inc.i wake up every morning to see you, feeling grumpy and grouchy.i know what's happening, i know.i'm no longer a small kid, seeing all these bits and pieces will make up the whole picture eventually.No words can describe how i feel when you said those words to me just now. to you, it might be just another lecture.but to me, every word you said sank in deep to my heart.i've always tried to help, but you never saw.i felt so let down; that despite my helping, you still blame me.but i don't blame you.compared to me, you have many many other troubles/problems that i will never see nd face until i grow up.nobody is happy, i know.but im not in the best of mood myself lately. can i don't bother about all these for now nd just keep to myself?i've always tried to find out what's wrong, always making the effort (which i believe is what i should do) but i'm afraid i will not say the same for this time.i can't keep up. i felt equally guilty when you said those to me.but what can i do, it's already too late.i just felt so maglined when you say i don't keep track of my expenses nd all.i've been doing everything you want for a daughter! maybe i've side track-ed a bit, but im on the right path.yet you came in just like that and accuse me!ifeltsoraided.*poof* i've let it ALL out. but i still don't feel good. RAR!
save me, superman! bring me high up there nd don't take me down!ROAR! can't help but cry. im good at nothing, but cry.
1st August, why do i predict another long nd unhappy month ahead? i thought July was
great(very great), now it seems like August will be even worse. Argh.
i just wanna hide under my blanket nd be alone.
don't come knocking on my door.
LEAVE ME ALONE.
XOXOs
