Sunday, April 1, 2007 @ 11:25 PM
its bee a few days since i updated. nd im back! =)

its gonna be a whole chunk of words: trying to recOllect all the fallen pieces of me. things are actually much much better le. but i just feel very uneasy still. nd i just don't know why. argh, just feel like shouting but there seems to be no sound coming out. just like earlier on when we were at mary's house. the cat came into the rOom nd i saw it! i wanted very much to shout, but somehow i just managed to stone there. its a classic example of how im feeling now. im startled nd shocked yet i just dOn't have the voice to scream nd shout for help. I COULD JUST STAND ND STARE. why am i liddat?! i used to scream nd shout at the tOp of my voice when i see the cat, what am i dOing now? not just the cat issue, but everthing that happened recently. i just cant seem to interact anymore. im getting weird. ive changed. im starting to not know myself. jubeelient luffter is just a way of covering my grieve. lol, so lit. =S i think dark nd glOomy clouds are gathering abOve my head nd my blog. my whOle persOn seems to be even more pessimist than before! um well, not as bad as 2005. not to the extent of killing myself again. =x but it aint getting anywhere far from it. lol. however so, i really wanna thanks all my friends who are with me throughout. actually those maiyatang was meant as a small thank-yuu gift. but ltr decided tt its too han suan le, so.. just enjOy the sweet! ((:

i jus lOve taking pictures, in buses, barbara! :))

ytd when we 3 went to westcOast to visit my sista at wOrk.

a 4hours-yet-heartwarming gathering at mary's tOday. :)) yuu gurls r the sweetest creatures on earth!

yeah yeah yeah, they did tt just bcos i wanted them to. -.- i think its so ever easy to guess who they r, the hair is OBVIOUS!

ok, my face is BIG but i just like this picture. though all my flaws r shown. =(

mummie is great!!
she's signing a facial cOurse at BodyWellness for me if i wants it. =)
we went for facial on saturday nd i kinda enjOyed it. i did DIAMOND TREATMENT!! whatever the prOper term is. lalala~
vivO-ed after that. went into Topshop nd saw this very nice purplish-red top. but i'd need leggings to gO with it. nd I DON WEAR LEGGINGS. so gOnna let it gO. Forever21- nice cheap bluee dress. didin't have a chance to try out- lOng queue at fitting rOom. sucha pity~

oh yeah, i wanna apologies to chinyee, barbara, laOda:
i know my nails r way tOo lOng for mahjOng etc. but i just lOve it larh. pls dOnt force me cut it off, esp chinyee! okis? next time yuur will dO the tiles washing den i won't hurt yuur hand le. =x
sOrry, i think i sound barbaric here. =x
i just wanna stay-hOme tml. yet i want my friends with me. -dOmineering-

闭上眼, 一切的一切别看的更是清楚.
所有的所有让我感到心有余悸.
每当我想起, 都还会感到害怕.

XOXOs