Saturday, April 21, 2007 @ 8:31 PM
friendship.
had a talk tOday with ctb`
barbara, i think there's some miscommunication this morning.
ps/ i was the one to msg yuu using laOda's phone. cos my phone was on repair.
anw, i didn't mean to ask yuu not to come down cos i/we dowan to see yuu. its cos we thOught yuu always have to come down all the way to jurong, so we decided not to make yuu travel here just to play mahjOng. pls dOn get us wrOng. we'd of cos lOve to see yuu! =)
mary, like what i said just now. i just felt irritated why it seems that no matter how many times i mention, nobody seems to remember it. i didn't mean to be nasty. nd trust me, im very excited abOut the place yuu wanna bring us to.^^
chinyee, just now i said i'm still pondering if i shOuld go out tml nd there's a reasOn.. whether we meet up or not, i'll feel awful the next day cos i will definitely miss yuu gurls. i didn't say this to yuu just now cos yuu'd say im mushy. but that's really how i felt.. ='( nd i teared on the bus not bcos of the thought of gOing to schOol, but at the thOught of not being able to see gurls everyday.. ='(

family.
family's super fine. suddenly i feel like a leech towards my parents. like last sunday, when they went out w/o me, i felt very scared nd terrified. i don't know why. i just felt that way. as usual, i vented my anxiety by crying. yes, i love to cry. cos i feel better if i cry whether im sad/angry or even happy! i love my family. thats all i can say. =)

studies.
hais. i still think i cannOt do it. i still feel akward nd out of place in this campus. i feel so distressed nd depressed that my tears will flow automatically when im reminded of me being a student now. =@

I HATE SCHOOL

oh yeah, my phOne's BluetOoth's spOiled. so i sent it for repair. hurhhurhs. i can only take it back on wednesday. =x
im missing my phone. =(

XOXOs