Thursday, March 29, 2007 @ 1:54 PM
it set me thinking
things seems to be unsuccessful nd rough for me lately. many things are happening at the same time. im already 迟钝 enough normally. i couldn't nd doesn't know how to react to everything. problems are all left hanging. i don't dare to spit out my troubles to anyone. inferiority, that's the problem.
i have so many problems at the same time that i doesn't even know how to present myself in front of other people. i don't hide emotions well, i know. im afraid of people asking
are yuu alright? when i know i am not. but instead, all i can ever do is to say
yeah im fine. i just feel dOwn nd out. literally
DOWN N OUT.
i feel helpless. this time, i feel geniunely helpless. i cant even call out for help. there seems to be no one that can help me. i wish all problems could be solved my way. but obviously that's impossible.
as every minute every second passes by, i feel a part of me falling off. like im gOing to disappear when the sand finish falling through the hour glass.. like my time is up, like im gOing to say gOodbye to everyone for the ONE LAST TIME. nd the feeling is terrible nd tormenting.
AND ITS KILLING ME!! i really feel rotten. but i dowan to show my emotions. yet i cant hide them well.
i think im useless. or maybe,
i really am.-------------------------------------------------------
sOme photos to share. it makes my mOod better; trying hard to climb up the deep abyss.
-problematic-
XOXOs
